My wife moved into the step-down unit yesterday at noon. She is struggling again to get her oxygen into her bloodstream. They put her back on the BiPAP at 100%.
My emotions are destroyed. I spent about 15 to 20 minutes and prayer seeking God’s face, with a desire of her coming home. I’m pretty sure my wife is disappointed and discouraged as well.
Days are getting harder. Harder to focus. I don’t think my faith is wavering. I think my faith is only getting stronger. I really need to be strong for my family. I think the worst part about this whole thing is I can’t see my wife’s face, I can’t hold her hand, I can’t kiss her lips, and she isn’t laying beside me at night. I may be so very emotional but I know my God is greater. Even in the midst of pain and suffering, my God is greater. I think my puppies know that I’m very sad. It seems they are pretty cuddly lately.
I truly hope and pray that anybody that reads these posts, that are struggling, or getting ready to pass through the valley would be at least informed of the struggles that you deal with.