A Year Later

It has been over a year since I last posted any updates on this page. I have been doing very well and could not have made it this far if it were not for my strong faith in the Lord Jesus Christ. I have since remarried and she is absolutely unique and beautiful inside and out. God did some pretty amazing things over this past year, that only God could have done. He has revealed to me many things that I needed to work on in my personal walk. God has grown me up in a way that life and its challenges could not be any worse than what I experienced a year ago on September 5th.

To this day a lot of people still do not understand what happened, and why, and it is likely that they never will. The decisions that I have made up to this point and time are all mine and they were biblically based on what I believe God wanted me to do. Some still do not like it. I frankly do not care. They did not go through or experience the unjust treatment that I encountered over a two-week period. That is between them and their relationship with the Lord. That is if they have one. Only they know. I continue to move forward.

The experience I had during those two weeks has given me almost an obsession to find the answers and the truth to what really is and what was going on. The truth is beginning to come out on many levels and I am not going to rest until the truth and justice become known. Not only for myself but for the thousands and thousands of people that have had their lives taken by this terrible pandemic. As I find out the truth you can be assured that I will talk about it and expose it. What you as the reader do with it, is all up to you. People seem to think they are smart by shoving things under the rug or locking them up in a closet. They do not realize that there is a God in Heaven and He is all about truth. I have no set agenda for this mission. I am not looking for fame or fortune. I am looking for truth and justice for the murder of our loved ones and if it means that I have to do the work myself, then I will do it, as long as I have breath in my lungs or the Lord raptures me out. I will blow the lid off this event, expose the truth and reveal the names, and make it known to the entire world. I will not rest till I get the truth and the justice that I and so many others are longing for. People need to be held accountable for their actions! If no justice happens here on this earth, rest assured judgment WILL happen in Heaven!

I want you to know that if you are dealing with the same situation as I have. You are not alone. There are many more people out there, some worse off than I am. There are still some out there that are so deep in depression that they cannot function or move. They have nightmares on a daily basis. They feel that there are no solutions to what they just encountered. What do I say to them? Hold the line. It is a terrible battle you are dealing with and it is NOT a physical battle. Take it day by day. Little by little. Step by step. Connect with others that understand what you have dealt with. Talk it out. Stay away from counselors that have never encountered what you have. Stay as far away from them as possible because what you are dealing with IS NOT physical. It is NOT biological. They cannot help you. Take it from me. I have been there. I know. I experienced it. Don’t fall into that path it only leads to more lies and can destroy you, it can destroy your relationships. Trust me I know. Reach out and find someone with that you can share your experience with that will listen. That will understand. Sure it hurts to tell the story. But I am finding that every single time I do tell my story I become a much stronger human being. You can do this. You can get through it. Most of all you do not have to try and get through it alone. If you have a personal relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ, He can be your Rock! Trust me. I know this. I have experienced such great power in the Lord over this past year. He is there. He is real and He is listening to your cries of mercy. You can even reach out to me. It is ok. I know it sucks. I know it cuts deep. I know it leaves a huge nasty scar. I know you feel no closure. I know. I get it.

I hope you understand. You are not alone. You can get through the battles you are dealing with inside you, without the drugs. without the psychology. You can be free from the battles within. I am walking living proof of that.